My Journey So Far

After I had my myomectomy and uteroplasty (removal of myoma and reconstruction of damaged uterus) last 2010, I've always prayed for a baby. I've been very insecure since my surgery (I has a bikini cut c-section, by the way) but I was really thankful that Paolo stood by me and married me despite of the risk of getting pregnant. Luckily, the Lord immediately blessed us with a bundle of joy right after we got married. (It was the best wedding gift ever given to us).

Before I thought that pregnancy was easy, fun and beautiful. Don't get me wrong, feeling and knowing that a life thrives inside you is a wonderful feeling but I always thought that pregnancy was as easy as 1-2-3. Whenever I fantasize about getting pregnant, I thought it was all about the kicks, singing tunes to the baby inside the womb, touching and caressing your belly as you fall asleep (imagining that you look fabulously good as the ones in maternity photos). Well I was all wrong! 

I never thought that there are so many hardships during prgenancy. In my case, I had so many challenges -- my frequent drowsiness and vomitting on my first trimester; my early contractions and placenta previa in my 2nd trimester; my unusual weight gain (from 110lbs to 140lbs-and counting), my acne breakout and lately, my horrible nightmares.

I've been anxious and depressed. Being told to stay at home for two months made me feel so useless and lonely. My bedrest period made me more anxious than ever -- what would happen to my baby? Will I still have a job when I get better? Is my husband still attracted to me? Those were the questions that kept running in my head. However, whenever I feel my baby's kicks and hear my husband's reassuring words, I feel relieved. Also, whenever other people remind me that all of the things I'm experiencing is normal, I get to realize that all these sacrifices are worth it.

I may still have my insecure, anxious and lonely moments, but I make sure that I keep myself positive for the baby. This is one gift that I will cherish for the rest of my life.

 I hope you liked this post. I feel like I want to share with you my experiences so that expecting moms, or even single ones can learn or be inspired from this. Until next update!

Dress: From Cousin || Sandals: M. Nicole

Much Love,
The Bargain Doll


Bigger than Expected

Dress: Mint || Sandals: M. Nicole

Another pregnant outfit post that I bravely posted for you. If you are wondering why I've given this post such title, it is because I've grown bigger than expected. Of course, weight gain comes with pregnancy and some says its normal. However, in my case, I've already gained 30lbs in my 6 months of pregnancy. According to my OB, normal weight gain is 30lbs during the ENTIRE pregnancy. Looks like I've already reached my weight limit with still 3 months left and still have a lot of weight to gain for my baby. Currently, I am advised to be on a low-carb diet to avoid not just tremendous weight gain but monitor gestational diabetes as well. I'm partly to blame cause when I found out that I am pregnant, I ate everything I wanted and devour all the food I deprived myself when I was dieting and working out before wedding. From having an active lifestyle to a sedentary lifestyle without diet discipline, my weight increased tremendously.

Anyways, I pray that I'd be able to manage the clean eating the coming months. Although I'll be delivering through C-section cause of my myomectomy three years ago. Another good news, I'm cleared for work in 2 weeks time! :)

More updates soon!

Much Love,
The Bargain Doll


3 More Months!

Dress: Brand Spot || Hat: SM Accessories

It has been a while since I shared an outfit post here in my blog, so I'm shocking you with one. Yes that's me! I'm sure you have noticed the amount of weight I've put on since I last updated my blog. Since I have nothing to do here in our house, and I'm feeling much stronger compared the past weeks, I asked my mom to take my outfit photos. 

I'm currently on my 24th week now, and it has been a couple of months since I was advised to go for a bedrest due to my preterm contractions and placenta previa.Currently, I feel that my contractions are already controlled (thanks to my maintenance medication) however my OB-Gyne still won't let me go back to work because of my placenta previa. Placenta previa is a very delicate condition for pregnant women as any strenous activity can cause miscarriage or early labor. So imagine being stuck at home, doing nothing but sleep and eat all day, there weight gain is definitely expected.

So when I saw all these photos, I got mortified seeing how big I look now. Earlier this morning, my mother-in-law even told me that I should start dieting already (cause pregnant women are only allowed to gain up to 30lbs and I'm already 135lbs from 108lbs). So tomorrow I'll start my veggie dinner (but still eat full meals on lunch and dinner) and try to avoid snacking on sweets.

Anyways, its fun to share something again here in my blog. Can't believe I only have 3 months left to see our own bundle of joy! I also hope I'll be cleared back to work by the end of the month. Staying at home is killing me already!

Much Love,
The Bargain Doll